God proceeded to restore us. Little by little, He revealed glimpses of
how He redeemed our story. We learned what it really meant to walk by faith.
I came home a
few days later from the bookstore with a new book, Sheila Walsh’s Extraordinary
Faith[1]. I devoured it,
marking up every other page along the way. She reminded me throughout the book that
faith doesn’t just trust the answers will come someday. It trusts God whether
we ever get answers or not. Faith doesn’t mean everything will all work out in
the end. No matter what news we get, God will never abandon us or leave our
side. Faith trusts in the security and constant presence
of a Savior. We still hurt, but in the midst of the hurt, enough grace comes
each day to get us through.
I believed I possessed strong faith throughout the entire adoption
process and later through the appeal. I see now I had it all wrong. I finally understand
what it means to live by faith and to experience the grace that holds me
together each day.
[1] Extraordinary Faith, Sheila Walsh, 2005, Thomas Nelson.
Let us then approach the throne of grace with
confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time
of need.
Hebrews 4:11
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