The first of many unexpected tears

Unexpected Tears

(To Viviana)

Thoughts of you dance through my head,

yet much to my surprise,

I find my heart aching

as the tears fall from my eyes.

This waiting has been equally hard

both for you and for me.

You long for me to come see you,

I wonder when "Adoption Day" will be.

An expectant mother often wonders

about the color of her baby's eyes.

I've already looked deeply into yours

and envision them with each sunrise.

A pregnant mother imagines

the sound of her child's voice.

I've memorized the sound of yours,

even amidst so much background noise.

I've heard your smile when you're happy,

I've heard you giggle with delight,

I've detected sadness in your voice,

and I've heard your weariness at night.

You keep asking when I'm coming,

I keep wondering when I'll go.

We both dream of reuniting,

as our bond continues to grow.

You don't forget a single word

that I utter to you over the phone.

I cherish every word you say

as I long to bring you home.

I expected to bond with your brother,

as our talks carry a more natural tone.

I expected to win your heart through his

due to how your love for him has shown.

Now every time I say I love you

and you say you love me, too,

a part of my heart lies broken

until the law declares it all true.

I ache for you, my Princess,

more than I ever thought I would.

My arms long to hold you

and call you "mi hija" for good.